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6:38am. I feel so bad sometimes. I cannot bear the pain, at times. Like I cannot fathom the immense sadness. I think it's good though, when my heart aches, because it means I am still human. I fear the day that I may no longer feel anything for anyone. Once that day comes, I think I would no longer feel for humanity. Maybe I am fucked up as a person, I am broken and wrong. I think so, because what else would make sense? I just wish I was satisfied with simple things, like I see so many others... I wish that my heart could bare such simple joys. Until then, I will let myself anguish in this pitiful existence, this joyless meandering through life. Ah, let me live, I pray, let me live. before I die.