Currently 10:31pm. I'm sitting here, in another apathetic state. It feels more intense now, these days just blur into the next. I have no feelings sometimes, no amount of human contact will ever relieve me of such intense apathy. It's less of an annoying feeling, more like a constant in my life now. I assume it will become more of a comfortable emotion at some point. I wonder if at some point I will no longer enjoy anything permanently. If one becomes so numb, they no longer feel... are they still human? I don't know if I will succumb to this numbness, in time I will know. For now, I will distance myself from others. I will play with this apathy, maybe I could learn from it. I'm just really tired. I'm so tired.
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