Right now its 6:57am. I dislike typing on my phone but I felt I needed to write this all out. I see on social media how connected people are, all the time, it fills me with a sensation of drowning, how these people do not feel a sense of being underwater and overwhelmed with so many connections and socialization is beyond me. I feel at times I need more than "alone time" like there's a certain amount of that "alone time" that just never gets filled. I feel as if one day I might dissappear from the world, leave all my problems, and issues in another world. I might call myself Eric or something just for myself to get out of my head. Leave to a world where nothing is common, or familiar. I kept thinking to myself recently, that I might just be broken, or lost, how these flesh mounds of people can be so incredibly different from me, I can never understand. I think THAT is the fundamental issue with myself, and society, that I can never touch the brim of everyone's world, as they so easily do mine. Only time will tell, if I am more alien, than man, I guess. What a disaster.
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